Sunday, June 1, 2014

Never Forget to Remember.....

It has been an interesting weekend.... lots of reminiscing.

Yesterday we remembered my Aunt Judy ... even though she wasn't my blood relative, she was a HUGE part of my life, if only for a season. A season that ended too quickly, in circumstances that mimicked the very ones that brought us into the season that we shared. See, when I was 9 yrs. old my mother passed away while in recovery from heart surgery in Houston, TX. We were staying at Aunt Judy's when this happened, a few weeks ago, Aunt Judy passed away during heart surgery in the same hospital. God did not allow this for no reason, however, I am not sure what the reason is at the moment. I have thought and prayed for the family members often since that day. Sometimes with regret for not keeping in touch better throughout the years, other moments with just plain love and joy for the memories I have because of those years.

In the interim between my mothers passing and the summer my Dad remarried my stepmom (5 years), Aunt Judy was my surrogate Mom, along with a few others who came along side of us. But I remember many weekends and school vacations spent with their family because my Dad still had to work. One summer we almost went with them on vacation to Alabama ... but for whatever reason it wasn't meant to be and we didn't go. But I will always have those few years of memories with me. The have helped shape me into the person I am today. Even when I don't know who that person is. I learned alot about her just yesterday at the service, things I couldn't have know as a child, and for whatever reason never got to know as an adult. I know someday I will see her again, and I will give her a great big hug and tell her something I never did while she was here. I will thank her for everything she did for us all those years, oh so many years ago.

Some of the things we shared were sleepovers .. (LOTS of sleepovers) ... playing in the fort in the woods... dancing like fools in the basement, watching General Hospital in the afternoons, eating ham salad sandwiches in the kitchen, playing games on the kitchen table, while Uncle Jim was watching any game on TV...(and yelling at it) ... playing with their Dog "Nugget" ..... going to the neighbors house next door to play on their tennis court or down the lane to goof off.. and watch the cute boys...talking about those cute boys among other things... I'm certain their were many of those conversations since boys were our main focus, piling in the big white station wagon to go ... well anywhere .... and their were escapades at school ....these are just a few of the things I remember ... there are many more that I have forgotten.

  Today we remembered for a happy reason, a high school graduation, another marker for time.. this one an achievement, but with the same family.. (although a different branch) that still we call friends. Life is funny that way, how it can bring you together for the good the bad and the ugly ... somethimes all in one moment.

So thank you Aunt Judy for all the memories and life lessons you helped me through ... and to the Houston families for taking in 2 little girls in the midst of chaos ... and helping calm the storm, while teaching us that family isn't always who your related to by blood but those who are there for you when the going gets rough.

A song that keeps repeating itself in my head is Ray Boltz ... " Thank You" .... - Thank you... for giving to the Lord, I am a life that was changed"

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

2013 ... how did it get here so quickly..???

... in a little less than 2 days...
 I will be the parent of a high school graduate .....
 the saying  "time flies" is an understatement if you ask me ....
 I am NOT ready for this .... but he is ... (the graduating senior)

It seems like only yesterday I was sleeping with my arm draped over the edge of the bassinet to make sure he was breathing .... or snuggling him on the couch while we watched Toy Story for the millionth time ...... catching him "stamping" with my address stamp in my bible ... (oh boy you shoulda seen the face) .... watching him walk up that ramp to preschool .... then climbing on that big yellow bus for the first time ....... then moving and changing schools, he didn't (and still doesn't) like changes unless they are on his terms ... he was so scared he ran out of the classroom when I left, and followed me down the hall ... the school counselor and the nurse became his buddies for at least 1/2 that year ..... but when he settled in and made friends, he made several for life ..... some he had know since birth, others became the friends he has LOTS in common with .... then there was the brief experience with Boys Scouts, the years of soccer, Little League, Junior football for a couple, then he found Lacrosse and it was settled. There have been a couple girls that have had his heart ... although he won't admit that there were also a couple that crushed it .... he found himself (sort of) in middle school... he stepped out and became a leader ... a voice to be heard, and a force to be reckoned with ... ( no one ever tried though) ... he found a couple more friends ... these are the "crew" as it were, that still hang around ....

 Then it happened ... he started high school ... and it was the beginning of the end .... the grades have stayed steady, and the behavior (in public) is exemplary (for the most part) .... and he made a choice I couldn't in 10th grade ... to go to the School of Tech .... in my mind one of the single most important choices he could make ... and he did well ... spectacular in fact ... he has received awards, was inducted into the "Technical Honor Society", and placed 3rd in the state at the Skills Competition. VERY PROUD MAMA right here... :)  Which trade did he choose?? .... HVAC/plumbing ... emphasis on plumbing ... he found a full time summer job last year and that is where his future is after graduation ... he has a small scholarship for education.. his plans are to take the "welding" course through the college.

 He is truly a young man I have grown extremely proud of.... but more so of the Christ-likeness I see in him... see ... that is more important to me than any earthly goal .... to be a "Man after God's own heart" ... that is what I pray for him... I can only hope that his father and I have given him a firm foundation for his own faith .... we are certainly NOT perfect in our own ... and we try to make sure ALL of our kids know that .... trust me they see more cracks than any other people on earth ... but I also hope they see the reality in our faith ... the truth .... we too are still growing in it .... 

So in just a few short hours ..... the world will gain another working man, another taxpayer (oh joy) ... another young mind, eager to make his mark on the world ...

 .... so have at it Jacob Kenneth Clausius .... may you make Godly choices, be it in work, in love, and in life ..... Only those are the ones that will matter in the end ....

We love you more than you could ever imagine .... and our prayers are for you to grow in Him .... and we are SO VERY PROUD of your accomplishments thus far .....

Congratulations !!!!!    to you and the entire graduating Class of 2013 !!!!!

May God bless you all ... today and also in the future ..... !!!!  

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

He is RISEN ....... INDEED !!!!!!!


   The following is my personal thought path that became my lesson for the Junior high girls this evening..... I will let you know however ... it was preceded by a viewing of the "Passion" .... since it is in fact the Holy week. My mind was flooded with a thousand thoughts all at once but what you are about to read is what I caught on paper........

   I would encourage you to read the story yourself first ... I read it from Matthew .. starting in chapter 21 and then through.. (minus the parables) to the crucifixion and lastly the BEST part the resurrection!!!

   It was a lot of scripture to read through and while Matthew wasn't my first choice ... he does cover most of the bases. So read the story..... be taken back ....refresh your mind .. or maybe discover it for the first time ... you won't be disappointed....


   ......This past Sunday Jesus would have ridden into Jerusalem .. on a donkey... with GREAT excitement . The Jews believed him to be the long awaited "King" ...... come to save them from their "captors" as it were. But all too soon their joy and excitement turned to anger and resentment.
They were looking for Him to save them from their earthly "captivity".... He came to free them from their "spiritual" captivity......

    He was betrayed by a friend, one who valued the small sack of coins more than the life a friend...even if only for a moment....

   While He prayed in the Garden..... His other friends fell asleep... when all He had asked of them was to stay awake......

   Then while on trial....for false charges nonetheless.... one of these same friends denied knowing Him.... not once.... not twice... but 3 times...

   His own people were rejecting the truth that stood before them,
                                                                  that lived and breathed...
                                                                     One that many had listened to,
                                                                        and said they believed in.
                                                                          They had eaten with Him....followed Him ....
                                                                    but now were scorning Him,  .....and ready to kill Him

   ..... WHY????? ..... why had they changed their minds so quickly...... how had they gone from love to hate in less than a week ...?????

   In part ... because He was not what they "wanted"....
                     He didn't follow the rules they thought He should ....
                                    He didn't do the things they thought He would....
                                                 
  In fact ..... He was what they "needed" ...........................

   He brought them the truth, because He was the truth............

      He brought them life, because He was the life .........

        ...and He brought the Way ... because without His death on the cross ... there wouldn't be a way!


The truth is this .... the details ... as painful as they are ... and ultimately Christ's crucifixion on that cross .... that is the truth that sets us free.


Each of us have been one of those friends ... we have played at least one of those roles in our lives...

   .... the betrayer ... by denial, or gossip, maybe revenge, or maybe even for the "money"...

      ...we have  let someone we love down ... we fell asleep when they needed us

         ..we have believed lies for the truth ....

          ... and ALL of us at one time or another have expected Jesus to be something we "wanted"         rather than what He is ......


               .... and yet now ....... just like then ......

   ... He has already forgiven us .... we just need to ask .......

             .... "For by His stripes, we are healed" .....


Just like many of the prophecies in the Old Testament .... these things were meant to happen just as they did.

While the one who betrayed Him did in fact take His own life .... there are happier endings too ....
    ... Those who fell asleep ...became the one's who spread the gospel...
      ....The one who denied Him .... became the "rock" the church was built on ...
          ... and those who scorned Him .....even some who had cried out .... "CRUCIFY HIM!!!"
                   they became followers and members of the first churches ......


I certainly hope that you can enjoy and celebrate this Easter Sunday with the joy that comes from knowing that ...... HE is Risen INDEED ...... HALLELUJAH .....!!!!!!

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Intentionally, Unintentional

The word "intentional" came up some weeks ago in our lifegroup from church. It somehow got under my skin and started sneaking into my thoughts throughout the next week ar so. IT began to burden me so much that I felt the need to sit down and write about it ... although it is not nearly as fresh in my mind now.

Intentional:  done with intention or on purpose; intended
               synonyms: designed, planned

The word itself doesn't seem so scary until I start thinking about how much of my life "isn't" that way anymore. I started to realize that in many things I am just doing what I have always done... maybe out of habit..but other times because I would need to invest more time than I have or want to spend on something or someone to see whatever result I was looking for..... how sad....

I began looking at my life for where and what I SHOULD be intentional about.... like the mother that I am, the wife I am, the friend I am, and of course the follower of Christ that I am. Since all those other roles hinge on this one it is obviously the most important. It is also the one that I fear I have become more unintentional about over time. Not on purpose mind you, but within the definition itself lies the answer... I have simply not been "intentional", or doing things with intention.. or on purpose.. or with a purpose in mind. My life seems to have become a blur... just "dealing" with things as they come up or doing whatever happens to be there... not preparing for things.. whether seen or not.. or having a plan for one thing or another.... not that everything can be planned. I am well aware that things can slam into you that you never expected and every plan you have takes a backseat to dealing with that particular situation, but the other things, the everyday things, the ones that are always around and have become second nature to us (me).
Am I still or have I ever been intentional about them... and if not... why not????

These are just a few of the questions I was sort of wondering about.. and I must say it has been an interesting journey thus far. I am trying to be MORE intentional in the areas of my life that I believe are the most important.. like as a wife, I want to love my husband unconditionally, and be the helpmate that God wanted me to be for him. (IT is a big job and often I get frustrated with both of us.. because I know what I want to see how I want us to be and often it is far from my vision). Then as a mother.. am I being the Godly example I want them to follow....??? The friend one is REALLY slacking... I don't think I have a single friend that has called me to do anything in about a year... obviously I am not doing so well in that department... my apologies to those I am blessed to call friend.. I have let you down... if I were more intentional I would have called YOU to do something.
And lets not forget about the other family relationships, that of being the daughter, sister... aunt, cousin, etc. etc. .... I seem to failing miserably at all of these too.

And lastly and of course most importantly my role as Follower of Christ... where is my "intention" in this one..... ??? This is where my heart began to break .... because I believe I have simply "been" ... instead of  "been Intentional".... or I was simply "unintentional"...

Now I know that these things didn't just happen overnight... like all sin... it was a slow process... and somehow like I always do... I have a HUGE pile of it before I notice.... I know I have a long road ahead of me .. and that there are some things that may not be repairable.... shame on me... but my ultimate goal has always been that when the Lord takes me home; that somewhere along the line, I made a lasting Godly imprint on the lives of those around me that ultimately helped them along their road to glory, and brought HIM glory in the process.

So I guess the question has become.. what is my intention... and why... because if there isn't a plan ... all to often I get carried away in the moment... and that is where the trouble begins....

Pray for me... and I will pray for you too... that we may be "intentional" with our faith... and that the Lords glory is our ultimate "intention" overall....



Wednesday, April 6, 2011

.. Weighin' in Wednesday ...#4

well hello friend...

did your week go as planned...????

mine NEVER does..... and I am not someone who does well with "curve balls"... although, you'd think I'd get better, at either catching them or defending my self against them since I believe that is ALL that gets thrown in my direction.. usually at my HEAD...  now where DID I put that helmet..????

So of course my weekly plan ..not so good..
I did make a bit of progress in the "downward" dept.   YAYYYY!!!!

I lost about 1/2 a lb. ...down to 203 on the nose....

So lets see.. start week..207 ..week#2..203.6  ..week #3..203.8.. #4 203...lets hope the next curve ball knocks me out cold before I head for the chocolate .. ;)

Praying for you all too.. keep me in yours.. hoping to add more movement this week...

Friday, April 1, 2011

The difference between...Can't & Never....

This is something that has been prodding me ever since the retreat....

You've heard the phrase...God NEVER fails...and I know this to be true.. He is God so nothing happens that he doesn't have control over.. therefore He NEVER fails.. it is all part of the plan..His plan

But at the retreat Tammy (the speaker) made the statement that.. God CANNOT fail...this for some reason spoke volumes to me.... because this speaks to His character, not just His ability.....He never fails because he chooses not to... He cannot because it would go against everything in His character.. against His perfection.. to fail is in essence to NOT be perfect...

It made me realize that it only emphasizes His perfection...it makes our FAITH possible...
because we know that... "HE WILL do what HE says HE will do... and that HE IS who HE says HE is.." (borrowed from Beth Moore)

Faith: (noun)
1. -confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2. -belief that is not based on proof

Faith is the evidence of things unseen...beyond hope, and MORE than confidence...I have had my hopes "dashed" plenty of times, and I am not very confident...very often AT ALL...at least NOT in myself, that is...

But I have Faith in God...I am confident in Him, that He will follow through on ALL His promises, and I can trust Him...because HE WILL KEEP ALL His promises....

 1 Kings 8:56
“Praise be to the LORD, who has given rest to his people Israel just as he promised. Not one word has failed of all the good promises he gave through his servant Moses.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Joshua 21:45
Not one of all the LORD’s good promises to Israel failed; every one was fulfilled.

Psalm 9:10
Those who know your name trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

 Philippians 4:13
I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

2 Corinthians 1:20
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.


So when things in my life start going downhill, or seem out of whack... and I wanna believe that it is because He doesn't love me, or because He has forgotten me.. I have several options...1) I have started believing one of the MANY Lie's of Satan, 2) that I have walked away from Him, even if only a bit, or 3) I am in His will.. and it is just one of those "things" (test or trial) that will make me stronger in the end... a little more like the One who created me... a little closer to PERFECTION....our ultimate goal....PRAISE HIM...

..this-n-that......

unfortunately My brain.. and the computer just don't seem to be in "sync" these days.. I think of things I want to post.. whenever I'm in the car, or at work, or in bed at night... however...none of those places are where the computer is.. (well I use one at work..but not for "this" stuff.. ;) so you see the problem.. and when I'm here, well the thoughts seems somewhat jumbled ..here-n-there.. scattered.. nothing that would make a decent post...so don't give up on me yet.. hopefully I'll get a time that works.. maybe those wee hours after work.. once the weather warms up.. and I don't freeze while sitting at the computer .. we shall see...

thanks for the support, and of course keep up the prayers...

Well, i missed Wed. but the scale was not kind this week... (and no that is not why I didn't post).. .I gained about 1/2 a lb (204.2).....Not surprised to be honest.. I always get a little "cocky" after I lose a few and didn't have to try to hard...hoping humility will help keep me focused..and contimue the trek downward.. (on a positive note..this morning I was 203.8..so all is NOT lost..literally and metaphorically)

Keep those chins up ladies.. and get those bodies in MOTION....