Well........ I have to brag on my hubby just a little......he surprised me..
He left me a card and Reese's cups in my vehicle... AND if I hadn't left work early, it would have been ON Valentine's Day when I got it... :) :) :)
Gotta luv that man.....!!!!!! (and I Do... :)
I have to admit... it MADE my day...probably because it was TOTALLY unexpected.. we are hard up for money these days..(as I have mentioned on numerous occasions).. and he isn't exactly Mr. "Rememberful"... but the gentle jibbing at life-group the other night might have had something to do with it.. who knows.. but for once I'm not analyzing the "why".. just enjoying the "is"....
I stopped on my way home and spent a little myself, on him, and the kids.. after the "tenseness" around here lately I figured they could all use some "LOVE"......
Hope fully in the morning I'll have some "Heart-Happy Campers"...even if only for that one moment......
Do you sense a change here?????.......I can only assume you all have been praying..(I know I have) because although I have had my "Thar she blow " ..moments lately.. they are somewhat less intense and I can usually bring myself back to "sanity" a little quicker ...
I take NO.. I repeat NO credit.. for this... I know myself.. it is only God that can bring these changes..He definitely met me where I was.. and for all I know may still be.. I am just attempting to look at things a little differently.. more through HIS eyes, less through mine.
I keep thinking about a movie clip from a movie way back in the late 80's or VERY early 90's.. called "Parenthood".. w/ Steve Martin.. and hence ... while parts of the movie are definitely NOT on my highly rated list, there is one part that has stuck with me over the years...there is a grandmother in the movie.. she is quite senile.. however at one part she compares life to a carnival ride.. and while some people prefer the merry-go-round, she liked the roller coaster.. (or some other ride that is more "adrenaline pumping").. the merry-go-round she said "...just goes round and round.. that is no fun.. I like the roller coaster.. it bumps you around.. and goes in, and out, up and down...." or something to that effect... in any case, I always think of the scene where this hits home with Steve Martin's character.. they are at one of their children's school plays or something and their youngest gets a little "antsy".. and creates some mischief... you hear the clanking sound of the Roller coaster .. the sound it makes going up that first BIG hill.. as you watch Him (Steve Martin) getting tense watching all the chaos around him.. then you hear the screaming and the sound of the roller coaster descending down the hill...
I want to BE that grandmother.. who ENJOYS the chaos of life.. sure it isn't fun, it isn't always pretty, or perfect, or even bear much of a resemblance to the picture we all paint ourselves when we paint the picture of our life... but it is REAL....and it makes the best of each situation.. and moves on...learning every step...
God allows those hills and turns to throw us just a little of balance.. that is where we lean more on Him and less on us.. that is the "perfect balance"...
As Paul said to the Corinthians..
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
..so here is too the "Happy Surprises"....that show off my weaknesses, like today.. when my hubby reminded me that he is still here.. and that he loves me.. even though it may not be the way I THINK it should be...I'm not perfect either....go figure....
................Happy Valentine's Day............
